Maintain Control
“Maintain Control” these words came straight from my therapist during a much-needed session [today] recently had. We had a lot to discuss, about my current life trials and triumphs it’s always good to deconstruct (Dissect) she was sure to reassure me about the things I have been feeling and experiencing, the validation was appreciated. She honored my feelings and gave me my flowers for my continuous growth and perseverance over the past few years. This particular phrase stood out because we discussed the peace that I had desired for so long, and over time have worked so hard for and how it’s a peace I want to keep and maintain. As time went on things were coming tempting to disturb my peace and just be a distraction but it’s not that easy.
The definition of maintain is to provide with necessities for life or existence, to upkeep, nurture, and support something (We discussed the intentionality of knowing what I need and honoring those things in the moments I need them.) Sounds like tilling our land and tending to our garden, we have to remember to water ourselves.
Control is defined as determining behavior, having authority, and dominance, and in control of. The simple phrase was such a huge reminder to put myself first and to continue to honor me in every season no matter how things may look.
“It’s not that we need to have total control sometimes we allow things to knock us off track and control us, but we have the power to take back what’s ours.”
Let’s just say she dropped a gem with this one because a lot of times if you’re like me; we find ourselves in situations where it seems like things are just not flowing. We tend to feel like we have no control over our circumstances and our emotions begin to drive us, but what about when it gets to where you’re losing control of your emotions? That is something we should always be able to manage on our own, it’s all in the practice of self-control. My goal is to make sure that I maintain my stance of gratitude and remember that things will work out as they always have. When we talk about feelings, we hardly address the way we avoid them, and how big they can be, and some of us would rather not sit with them either. What I know is that when we acknowledge where we are and how we feel there’s a level of self-awareness achieved that will allow us to hold ourselves accountable. There is always work to be done and I stand on making sure that I reflect inward daily because I want to show up as my best self. I believe one of the things we do is hand over our control to others unknowingly, this looks like taking on the opinions, advice, and beliefs of ourselves and how we show up to others.