Grieving Me
Have you ever grieved parts of yourself? I can’t be the only one who has experienced this… I think it could be talked about more, with the transformation process that we go through as we evolve as individuals and how it truly affects us. I want to shed light on this as I often find myself in this space of reflection about what was and who I was then… Crazy right?! It’s always fascinating seeing myself throughout different stages and how each one played such a significant role in who I am today. What’s most beautiful about our story is that we are constantly evolving and growing as individuals. It’s hard to see when we are in our current space but once we transition out of it, we can see the lessons that we have learned from in the aftermath. The evolution of what our “best selves” look like and how we show up changes overtime. Sometimes unprovoked we tend to be caught up in the idea of who we once were. When we elevate, we aren’t to walk into that as our old selves but better and ready to embrace what version of ourselves we become.
These moments can be a breath of fresh air, especially when I remember how good I felt or how at peace I was during that particular time in my life. I will find myself looking at old photos and videos, and I can recall the mental space I was in at the time and almost reliving that moment through my emotions. Don’t get me wrong these moments of reflection can also be tender, not so great moments, in how we may criticize how we may have handled things in the past. These are the ones that we still may reluctantly find ourselves grieving because of what we didn’t know or what we wish we could change. This is all completely normal from a spiritual and psychological standpoint; we tend to not so much dwell on things but remember; that there may be some things in the present that stir up memories of a different time. I bring this up as I have often been in this space even grieving, even spiritually where I once was and even where I desire to be. It’s about how we process our growth through these different stages of who we are, none of this takes away from who we are individually.
Each part of our life is a beautiful story within itself, while every piece may not feel beautiful while we’re there it’s a part of our journey. We want to embrace ourselves at every stage, just like giving ourselves grace in difficult moments. We have not yet reached our full potential if we are transitioning, which means that there is more to learn about ourselves and life in general. Going through this should have us anticipating which version of ourselves we will meet next. Will we be happier, stronger, and have a greater peace than the last we experienced, will we be more in tune with ourselves and the holy spirit? We will see why that point in time wasn’t our “greener” grass and why the pruning was necessary. Cherish those moments but don’t hold on so tight that you don’t allow yourself the space to continue learning about all the parts of who you are.
Xo Tee!